Angst

My dictionary defines "angst" as a feeling of dread, anxiety, or anguish.

When you are anticipating something that you have no control over, whether it be a good thing or not, you may feel angst about it.

The "anxiety" may be about whether the event or situation will evolve the way you desire, or whether you will perform an action in the best manner, or if someone else will do or say or be what you expect, and if the outcome of the event or situation really matters to you, a feeling of angst may precede the event or situation.

You may feel angst about a reunion. You may feel angst about a business meeting or interview, or a speech, or a sale, or a class, or an examination, or even a party or holiday.

You may feel angst about telling someone something that you know they will be unhappy to hear about.

You may feel angst when you expect to hear someone tell you something that you don't think you will enjoy hearing. It may be angst or it may be barely contained hysteria.

When you feel angst about too many things that typically occur in your day (starting up the car, driving down the highway, answering the phone, opening a bill, discussing finances with your spouse, turning out the light and trying to go to sleep), then you need to get help. Just talking about it isn't enough. Just writing down how troubled you feel isn't enough.

If you don't have someone you trust to tell your anxieties and worries to, someone who will listen uncritically and help you decide what you want to do and just help you get through the angst of it all, you can blog.

And then later you can delete.